First week without the Pill.

Technically, I took my last pill exactly 2 weeks ago, but every month I would do 1 week break for my period and I would start taking the next pack on the 8^th day after the last pill. This month I did not start another pack, which means last week was the first unusual week for my body that’s why I call it my first week off the pill.

My observations:

THE MOOD

-          Overall I feel weird, I feel like I’m in the point ‘zero’, I don’t feel good and I don’t feel bad neither. I kind of feel nothing. My emotions are very quiet and low, but it’s very hard to say whether it’s because of the hormones physically affecting my mood, or I am creating this nothingness in my head because I am expecting SOMETHING and there is nothing unusual happening (yet).

-           Over the years I made the observation that my cycle affects my energy for exercising. At the end of my period and a couple of weeks after, I can do longer and more intensive runs and I enjoy it much more than when I’m around a week before my period. I tend to get tired quickly and not even feeling like trying in those days. Over the past week as usual, I felt really good energy for running and I enjoyed my intensive interval trainings.

-          I court myself ... fantasising! While on the pill, I realised over the time that not only my sex drive almost completely died, the pills wiped out the area in my head responsible for any kind of thoughts and sexual desires. Last week, probably for the first time for months my mind was running a little sex film without me consciously producing it. I really hope it means the beginning of having my libido back.

THE BODY

-          Sometimes I could feel something going on in my belly (around the womb) and sometimes I felt like there was nothing going on and that my reproductive organs are still fast asleep and it will take a while before ovulating again.

-          I have an impression that there is more movement of gases in my belly. I feel like my belly lost its ‘construction’ of regular hormones and now while its coming back to balance, every movement is heavier and my belly even sticks out sometimes (normally I hardly ever have that because I regularly exercise my abs).

-          I definitely feel more moist - there is much more mucus coming from me. It makes me very happy to be able to notice it and feel it even while I’m doing my daily activities (observing the mucus is a part of getting to know my natural cycle) however, I am struggling to clearly define its structure and I’m not sure if its because of the hormone rollercoaster in my body at the moment or its just because I’m not yet familiar with different fluids my body produces. 

-          I have no extra spots on my face, I don’t think I lost any weight, my boobs didn’t go smaller and my cellulite is as it was too.

I am very curious what the next weeks will bring :) Fingers crossed I will recover my fertility without problems :)